Sunday, June 29, 2008

I Can't Explain The State Of My Heart

I don't really understand what it is about me, but something inside of me aches for relationship. Something inside of aches to be with people. It probably has something to do with my childhood, and how i grew up. But in moments of silence my heart drifts to a place filled with the people who I love with everything in me.

Often I lose credibility when I state that someone is my best friend, because it comes out of my mouth so often. But in all honesty, I feel that way about a lot of people. I fall in love so quickly (in the non romantic sense) and nothing in life soothes my heart more than being with the people that I adore.

I guess some people consider this to be an unhealthy thing. People will tell you that you need time to be alone, and that you need to be okay with the time that you have to be alone. In some sense I do agree, but if it is unhealthy I wouldn't have it any other way. To live a 'healthy' life and not ache for people every second of the day, or to live an unhealthy life and have your heart burst for all of the people who have been put in your life. I'll take the ladder of the two every single time. Although it might be the biggest burden I have to bear, although it might put me in a depressing place time and time again... it is my greatest gift. And it is something I pray, wish, and hope never changes. If you are reading this: I love you, spend time with me, because I am aching for it.

2 comments:

kara! said...
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Carrie Beth said...

I couldn't have said it any better myself. I long to be with people. All the time. I hate to be alone. I love to be with people. I love people. I feel your pain.